I’m just gonna get real, real quick here. I’ve been struggling with finding my sanity lately. I know life has its seasons and everyone has their hardships, but right now I’m trying to tread water and my head is usually under the surface. It’s heavy and I feel like just one more thing will sink me.
But God keeps breaking the surface for me to take a breath.
One breath at a time.
One day at a time.
Something God’s been peeling back awareness of in my life is the depth behind the fact that all this is not about me. It’s not about all my struggles and heartaches being fixed, it’s about His sovereignty and grace. My purpose is not to make the world better for myself or easier to swallow, but to wear God’s goodness, light and love in a way that glorifies His name no matter what is going on around me.
“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.”
Isaiah 26:3 ESV
Is there something (or everything) God is asking you to give serious thought to? Maybe that even means learning how to say no to good things.
Do you hurry through life’s decisions without being thoughtful about what your day becomes filled with? Is busyness a comfort because it’s an easy excuse to not face pain and not give value to those places of our heart that are hard to go? Or maybe you ignore God’s tugs on your heart to show His goodness because it’s uncomfortable, you don’t know where to start, you doubt that nudge is actually from Him and choose to ignore it.
Do you choose solitary comfort and complacency above the inconvenience of relationships or real community? Do you pour into everyone around you and don’t know how to recharge your batteries before pouring out again?
Just maybe you have been all of these things like me (told you...nervous breakdown) and desperately fail at finding a proper balance.
I don’t have the answers, but what if we sought for more intentionality behind all of our choices. Thoughtfulness is not just about considering the well-being of others, but it is a way of thinking that is careful and meditative. Instead of consuming our thoughts with the never ending to-do lists and suffocating feelings, what if we stopped and shifted gears mentally.
What if we decided not to choose thoughts filled with fear, doubt, anxiety and/or helplessness. What if we meditated on God’s discernment through thoughtful process routinely, and not just in the overwhelming or difficult decisions?
No matter where you are, who you are or what you do, there is always space for God to show you something new. Maybe it’s not about stressing over a perfectly balanced life (do those even exist?) and just focusing on what God wants you to do with each day.
One day at a time.
One breath at a time.
Why choose to go with the flow of traffic around us and carelessly miss the point of this beautiful gift we’ve been given: the love of Christ and because of it, eternal life with Him.
You can keep on saying “next season”, but God never promised life on this earth would be easy in any season. When we show up for others it does not matter whether your situation is worse or theirs is. In that moment all that matters is that you are present for someone other than yourself. What matters is that you are wearing God’s goodness, light and love. What matters is you are glorifying His name because you wear His kindness well.
“Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus,”
Philippians 2:3-5 ESV
There can be joy found in thoughtfully choosing to better someones life beyond your own.
There can be freedom found in thinking of others because it means letting go of your own burdens for a moment. Selflessness can shift your entire outlook on life and thoughtfulness is a great place to start.
“Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins. Show hospitality to one another without grumbling. As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace...in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.”
1 Peter 4:8-11 ESV